Still Waiting

"Rejoice always, pray without ceasing, give thanks in all circumstances; for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus for you."

1 Thessalonians 5:16-18

My homecoming was a wonderful moment, filled with many happy tears. The amount of radiation left in my body was not enough to be harmful to Sam and it continues to diminish every day. It has been an amazing week of reconnecting with Nate and Sam. I am in awe daily of how blessed I am to have such a capable husband. I would not have left my boys home alone if I didn't have every confidence that Nate would be the perfect caregiver for our son. The bond they share now is such a fun thing to see. My heart is full. 

I had my whole body scan on Monday morning and, for some reason, the report has failed to get into the hands of anyone that can actually give the results to me. A comment from the technician during the scan has worried me all week. The radiation appeared to have metastasized, however it was unclear to my untrained eye as to where. I have continued to cry out in prayer this week while rejoicing in the beautiful life God has blessed me with so far. 

Please pray with us that the cancer has not metastasized (spread) to my lungs, liver or bone… or anywhere for that matter. My prayer is that it was showing up in leftover breast milk (which makes much more sense, also considering the type of cancer I have, and my age). My dear friend Ann is on the case today, working on obtaining results so that my doctor can hopefully share them with me before the weekend. 

I would be lying if I did not admit that I am extremely frustrated with this process, and can better empathize with my patients in this regard. However, in the past, when I have had to wait for important news (a husband, getting into nursing school, a baby, and state board results to name a few) the results have always been beyond my best expectations. While I hope this trend continues in that waiting longer is a good thing, I still worry, and fear the worst. So, please, pray for a positive outcome today. Thank you for your continued support! May God continue to be glorified, and His will be done!

Love,
Beth